My Mum once told me when I was younger [and having an existential crisis] that everyone continues to change as a person until around the age of 25. I’ve been thinking about this a lot recently and it got me pondering about how I would define myself. Who am I, who do I want to be and what sort of person am I?

So, step 1 – Who have I been?

  • Meaning of the name ‘Emily’: from the Latin name Aemilia, meaning “striving,” “eager.” 
  • Urban Dictionary definition for ‘Emily’: slang term for a highly attractive and sexually intriguing individual (not going to argue with this one!).
  • Daughter
  • Sister
  • Friend
  • Pain in the arse (sorry Mum!)
  • Victim
  • Survivor
  • Klutz (Definitely not worth me arguing with this one – the amount of dents on my car is evidence enough!)
  • Self pity-er
  • Girlfriend (In many forms)
  • Geek

Step 2 – Who am I today?

  • Daughter
  • Sister
  • Friend
  • Pain in the arse (still, probably)
  • Klutz (definitely still – see fishy car debacle)
  • Geek
  • Proud

Step 3 – Who do I want to be?

  • Mother? ……hmmm
  • Wife? No thank you.
  • Auntie (yes please. Tom, Ed – I’m looking at you!)
  • Sister
  • Daughter
  • Friend
  • Klutz
  • Geek
  • Confident
  • Content

You’ll notice I have highlighted the common denominators. Looking at these I’d say I’m not doing so badly (klutz aside!). The two things that matter the most to me – friends and family – are the things that I am already fulfilling, just by being me.

So maybe I should stop being so hard on myself?

I hold my self to such high standards, yet I will accept other’s for who they are and will always find the good in people – I have perhaps a reverse double standards, if you will (I will).

So – you heard it here first – I am going to start being nicer to myself, more supportive of myself and more accepting of myself, starting today.

Or maybe tomorrow.  






One thought on “I AM WHO I AM

  1. Ha ha ha this year I am going to be 25yrs old…..for the second time….and I am still changing… developing…. learning…. making mistakes (some worse than others)….and surprising myself about who I am…what I can do…and what I can’t do. But I have learnt that I am an imperfectly nice person….and my family love me. That’s good enough for me. Good luck on your journey through life Emily….it’s a wonderful thing…full of highs and lows…and you will still be wondering about it/yourself as you exit it….hopefully in old age 👍😊x

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